so much for the 2010...the first day was great... tons and tons of money flowing back to me....
then just now... jan 3... my family is breaking apart... it's happening in front of me
who can i trust...
that... i'm so scared.. it's so sad... seeing my mom and dad like that... i thought they were in love... right?
i mean for 3 weeks... i've been convinced that they were really happy together....
then just now... why.... why
why can't ...i be saved...
i've always thought of parallel worlds... how opposite things happen to my other self... weird idea brought on by tons of books and games...
if that's true...for me who can remember facing despair for these years...the other me must be happy...perfect...and complete...
there's a void...that i can't fill... no matter how hard i try...i can't...
just now.. i felt as if the hole was going to swallow me whole... my back feels heavy... it's hard to breathe... it's hard to go outside...
Please... -------
